Before I made this entry, I tried to read my previous entries and I never thought that I was able to do such writings. Another reason to consider this month as a blast.
"There is hope in God."
A statement that I believed I fully believed. Deep down inside, I was pondering to believe. At the beginning of this month, -I actually didn't want to- it's as if I was in a roller coaster ride. Seemed like this will be a hell of a ride, I thought. There were a lot of fears and insecurities that I thought I couldn't contain. For some reasons, my renewed mind was twisted.
Fear of everything. Lack of faith in everything I do. Though there were people around me who continuously and unceasingly guided the fearful me. A midst the wisdom that they've been wanting to channel, I couldn't hear them out. The best advise, the best comfort and encouragement, all of these were present in the quarter part of the month. I just don't get it Lord, these people are trying their best but it has no effect in my life. I mean, it has at some point then I started to become fearful again. To worry about the things that might and might not happen. Truly, Christian walk is not easy, I say to myself.
Why do I have to listen first to these people when they don't make any sense to me? Isn't it that God's message should be seek first before anything else? Why should I relay my comfort to them when the greatest Comforter is just there waiting for me to come home to Him? All of my concerns are already written but I just don't read because of pride and fear. My selfish belief put me into a humbling experience.
One thing remains; the assurance that there is hope in Christ. That there's no need to ask why are these things happening? nor Why do I have to go through to this? The answers wouldn't be found in any books, movies or shows for it is written in His word. God assures that, Yes, today, you're suffering but behold, there's a greater glory that awaits, just hope and trust in Him. When things seem to be impossible, difficult and outrageously hard, He overcame all of these. Another reason why we should first seek for His intrusion. When fear knocks, answer it with faith. That we should not turn right or left, back or front, but to look up to the God of encouragement. When there are questions than more answers, when actually there's more crying than laughing, He promised that if we believe in Him, we will never be put to shame. In the stillness, I realized, the reason that the advises of the people around do not linger for so long is that, the greatest encouragements do come from God. For this, we should read His word so that we can actually experience His intervention. In Him, we find peace. We can try to answer all the questions, find the best solutions to our problems, and inject a great pride in our hearts. At the end of the day, He will break these and show His ways are higher than us.
This is the incredible hope that I have now. A refined faith with a new set of hymns and praises. Fresh words from Him every morning. This is one of the most, if not, the best month I've ever had.
