THE TREE AND THE LEAVES

                 Once there was a very beautiful mountain and on top of it is a huge and abundant tree. It lasted for so long that mountaineers would love to rest under it. Different seasons and climates have already passed; summer, winter, fall, autumn, rain and shine. Many couples vowed to each other in front of this tree. Many families have gathered and had a reunion and this tree witnessed these all. One day, a summer and warm day, a leaf asked another leaf "Hey, aren't you tired to be in this place all these time? I think we've had enough."
"I know, but our friend, stem, still wants to stay, so what can we do?" The second leaf responded.
"Maybe we can sleep and then never wake up! In that way, we can rest forever along with the other leaves." The first leaf said.
"Okay, I think that's a good idea."
The two leaves agreed on this and announced it to the other leaves. The next day, the body which is the trunk woke up together with it's stems. People started to come and visit this famous tree. However, the trunk was shocked because he felt so weak. Another hour passed by, more and more people are starting to notice that the tree seems to look lifeless. The trunk told it stems, "We should continue to live for the people, but I'm getting weaker." The stems started complaining one by one until one of the stems noticed that the leaves are dead. He reported it to the the trunk.
"How can they do this to us? They should have at least said it to us" one of the stems said.
Weaker and weaker they became; "Some things really never last even if we belong in the same part. We can never escape to say goodbye," trunk said. After that day, this famous and abundant tree died. A man who was a regular goer to the mountain was sad and whispered "Things come and go, even this tree"

A Time For Everything

Crying, laughing, nothing,
There's a season for everything.
Longing, understanding, demanding,
These are just showing that the world is revolving.


No one could ever fathom,
How this life takes you; it is a random.
Sharing the air we breathe,
Makes it worthy to accompany with.


This season in life might take us to another place,
Perhaps, take us to the golden days.
As the scripture says:
"A time to refrain from embracing, and a time for embrace".


Above all the seasons in life,
Waiting is the one that stretches my faith,
Stretches my patience,
Tests my perseverance,


However, at the end of the road,
Because I believe that there's a time for everything
In my hands, there will be the time of getting,
And will be victorious in the time of waiting.

Long Distance Relationships by Tashira Rodriguez (July 8,1995 / Puerto Rico)

Long distance relationships. Yes, they're hard and not the most convient. You have to be able to commit to someone you may have not even met in person, or might not see very frequently. They're hard. But, in a way, it's better. You don't fall for someone based on their looks. Yes, there's that initial attraction. You saw someone's picture, thought they were cute, and decided to message them. But as you keep talking, you fall for their personalities, not their looks. And I'm not saying normal relationships are all materialistic, and are based on attraction the other's appearence. But, with long distance relationships, it's easier to overlook the other person's looks. You talk more, get to know the other person more because, well, that all you can do. That's where it gets hard. In long distance relationships, you don't get much physical affection. It's all about emotions, and that's what makes the bond stronger. There are no good-night kisses, no good-bye hugs, no cuddling sessions. But, in a way, it's all worth it. You build up to that moment where you finally meet, and it's magical. Everything you felt for that person, gets even stronger, even though you didn't think that was possible. That first kiss, well, as corny as it sounds, it's like fireworks. What you've been longing for all this time, what you've had too many dreams to count about, that momenent, finally happened. That's when you know it was all worth it. When those emotions fire up to an extreme you didn't even know possible. That's when you know, all the rough times you guys have gone through were worth it, and there's nothing to regret.

"7"

Life has different seasons,

Some of it, there are still no reasons.

Just to have somebody to be with,

Is worth it to go back being a kid.

Suddenly, it was a big shock
To have you there,
And you having me here.
The north wind blows through.

Every season in the sun,
Will be spent without him; Oh I wish I can.
Every laughter and tears,
Will just immerse.

Shouting my feelings I think is good enough,
Just knowing that we live in the same sky.
There's no need to ask what, how and why
Assuming the stars we see are the same, no need to sigh.

When the rain falls on the ground,
I will stand up and be proud
That no matter how difficult it is now,
We will get there somehow.

HAIKU

When the wind blows through
The scent from the flowers flow
Brings back the old days


Butterflies that fly
Across the deep blue blue sky
Moisture of the sun.


Autumn's breeze go forth
The green grasses are dancing
Big tree covers me.


Loving the fresh air
Lying on the green vast grass
With someone I love.


Cuddling everything
Sweet aroma of flowers
Thankful you are here.

The Beginning of a New Love

I accepted the fact of omega.
And did everything for one last time.
It felt so hard at first.
I thought I will always be in this wilderness.

I became a loner,
Always sitting at a corner.
But then, there it came a new lover,
That just came somewhere.

He approached me and spent time.
He did everything just to forget my past.
My heart and soul that was once broken,
Was renewed by the heat of his love like an oven.

I thought love will always be miserable,
But his shining smile was capable.
My body that was once disabled,
Is now fixed because he is lovable.

He gave me hope,
When I  thought everyone will say "nope".
I'll remember the warnings of love.
And will make the beginning of a new love be the last.
 

When you have to say goodbye

Days are coming, 
While yesterdays are ending.
It's so scary, 
To say what I have been feeling.

It has been a good love.
There were no awkward memories.
He was always there when I needed him, 
He makes me laugh and carried me safely.

But then; I can't stay in longer,
Maybe, I can't be with him forever.
It is because I want him to be free,
And return to the girl of his dreams.

I'm trying to pretend,
That I'm not hurt.
But each time I think and imagine,
My heart feels like it crumples.

Sometimes there are things that are better to be kept unsaid.
These are only in my mind set.
I'm so sorry dear, 
But I have to say goodbye. 
 
 

many many miles;the season of waiting..fighting~!

It was the 7th of July when I surrendered and obeyed God by committing to this blessing. It was so divine and sweet that God made a way for us to finally say our "yeses" to each other. However, it is His grace that overflowed and I could not ask for more; as they say, "it's more than enough". It was a fine and sunny Thursday and I was spending my vacant time to a computer shop. Suddenly, animosity was gone and benevolence was all over the place, it was the alpha..For some reasons, I cannot take away the burden and the agony of having a commitment with someone whose on the other side of the world. It's just a cliche for every one to feel the way I feel, hoping there will be a niche for us to meet again. It just so happened that people tend to pend me with the previous one. It took me a lot of guts to finally give in to this so called "love". I was afraid for a time because of so many agony that I may encounter with this relationship. He is far, we are distant, we wont have time with each other; these are the doubts in my head. No one could ever assist me on this hence if loving will be like this, I'll take against all odds. I'll take these extremes. There are times that I long for his presence physically but at the back of my mind, we made this decision and this is his package therefore I should not take this against anyone else and just learn how to wait. There are times that tears would tend to fall from my eyes but I just thought of this as a blessing. Certainly this is a blessing and truly I was captured by its air. As I was putting my feelings to words and creating this blog, I'm battling with the emotion of sorrow realizing that this will just be for temporary only and we will get the chance to see each other face to face soon. The saying "True Love Waits" is very evident and applicable in my case now. I've already found the love however I have to wait for that love of my life to come personally. "I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell. When it's time to walk the way, we want to walk it well. I'll be waiting for you baby, I'll be holding back the darkest nights. Love is waiting till we're ready. Till it's right. Love is waiting"....many many miles; the season of waiting...fighting~!

when erogenous strikes

It was a gloomy morning..The usual day but something is unusual it thickens my chromatic emotions. Every word that comes out from other people's mouth are like a sharp double edged sword. It feel so senseless and hopeless and restless. There is a hunger for affection, but at the same time dilemma is striking me. Paroxysm takes place and this cliche is totally superb. I can't express the lazy feeling of thy epitome heart and mind but one thing is for sure. That I do not suppose to feel this feeling like a moron feels...I want to scream this to the top of my lungs so that people will understand why is it being manifested in my being. But no one is going to listen, no one's going to care no one is going to blare. There are silent noises on my background and though these are not for me, I take it against me. Erogenous is striking, it is alarming.
When I decided to have my devotion, I had clarifications and response. It was a commence and sweet rebuke to me. He taught never to be afraid if I want to complain to Him. If I want to demand! If I want to explode. Just do not hold a grudge to anyone. Apostle Paul once showed how he felt during his days when he wrote the letter for the Corinthian(1 Corinthian 9). There I understand that I should never be ashamed on expressing how I feel and don't devote to pretend  that I'm courageous like super heroes are. For as we run the race of this life, one should be trained(1 Cor 9:25) in order for him to know his strengths and weaknesses so that his weaknesses will be improved and be transformed into strengths. Even apostle Paul became weak for those who are weak therefore he a man of God understands the way I feel. This came to me that I'm truly not alone not just in the present generation but also to the early times. For when I feel undone and miserable, He reminded me of His agony as well when He was still alive as seen in John 11:35..Jesus wept. He understands when I also undergo to this stage. What could be the best remedy when erogenous strikes??is to gaze at His peace the time He wept..

ONE LAST TIME

Now it's all over.
I can't hide the tears, it covers.
We started as lovers,
We thought, we will always be believers.

Now I'm with you, you are with me
Let's take this opportunity.
To say to each other the words "I'am sorry",
And we can never be.

At least we made each other glad,
But our fate it bad.
Now we have to say "goodbye"
Though we want to cry.

I never regret we gave it a try
But this moment, I'am asking why?
Can't we make it longer?
To prove that we are much stronger?

I will miss everything.
Your hands, your touch, your hug.
I can see those eyes that are shinning,
Try to stop crying my darling.

Can I hug you tight?
I'm going to miss it,no; I'll take it light.
Can I touch your face?
That I will never see in every place.

Then we have to leave.
To go on and live.
But I want to kiss you first,
And one last time, please fill my thirst.

Bitter Yesterday

From the moment he turned those devilish eyes on me
I knew, this love he brought,
The quiver it shows
I was attracted the most

But now, those dreams are frivolous.
From the sweet moments, now a heart monument
Now, only reminiscing those sleepless nights
From the pain you brought.

Those unseprable days,
Now are like trees without leaves
From my shining eyes,
Now, the lights are off, it hurts the most

It deepens the heartache
When I discover, you already have someone new
Sometimes I want to quit the fight.
But I just have to push through to win, I might.

It is a catastrophe, yes it is.
But we have to live just to learn.
Though everytime I see, in myn heart it's like a slap
So I've decided to ignore these feelings.

How I wish I can turn back the invincible time,
But I have nothing else to prove.
I gave my love but you broke it up.
I just hope I can press on from the bitter yesterday.