when erogenous strikes

It was a gloomy morning..The usual day but something is unusual it thickens my chromatic emotions. Every word that comes out from other people's mouth are like a sharp double edged sword. It feel so senseless and hopeless and restless. There is a hunger for affection, but at the same time dilemma is striking me. Paroxysm takes place and this cliche is totally superb. I can't express the lazy feeling of thy epitome heart and mind but one thing is for sure. That I do not suppose to feel this feeling like a moron feels...I want to scream this to the top of my lungs so that people will understand why is it being manifested in my being. But no one is going to listen, no one's going to care no one is going to blare. There are silent noises on my background and though these are not for me, I take it against me. Erogenous is striking, it is alarming.
When I decided to have my devotion, I had clarifications and response. It was a commence and sweet rebuke to me. He taught never to be afraid if I want to complain to Him. If I want to demand! If I want to explode. Just do not hold a grudge to anyone. Apostle Paul once showed how he felt during his days when he wrote the letter for the Corinthian(1 Corinthian 9). There I understand that I should never be ashamed on expressing how I feel and don't devote to pretend  that I'm courageous like super heroes are. For as we run the race of this life, one should be trained(1 Cor 9:25) in order for him to know his strengths and weaknesses so that his weaknesses will be improved and be transformed into strengths. Even apostle Paul became weak for those who are weak therefore he a man of God understands the way I feel. This came to me that I'm truly not alone not just in the present generation but also to the early times. For when I feel undone and miserable, He reminded me of His agony as well when He was still alive as seen in John 11:35..Jesus wept. He understands when I also undergo to this stage. What could be the best remedy when erogenous strikes??is to gaze at His peace the time He wept..