many many miles;the season of waiting..fighting~!

It was the 7th of July when I surrendered and obeyed God by committing to this blessing. It was so divine and sweet that God made a way for us to finally say our "yeses" to each other. However, it is His grace that overflowed and I could not ask for more; as they say, "it's more than enough". It was a fine and sunny Thursday and I was spending my vacant time to a computer shop. Suddenly, animosity was gone and benevolence was all over the place, it was the alpha..For some reasons, I cannot take away the burden and the agony of having a commitment with someone whose on the other side of the world. It's just a cliche for every one to feel the way I feel, hoping there will be a niche for us to meet again. It just so happened that people tend to pend me with the previous one. It took me a lot of guts to finally give in to this so called "love". I was afraid for a time because of so many agony that I may encounter with this relationship. He is far, we are distant, we wont have time with each other; these are the doubts in my head. No one could ever assist me on this hence if loving will be like this, I'll take against all odds. I'll take these extremes. There are times that I long for his presence physically but at the back of my mind, we made this decision and this is his package therefore I should not take this against anyone else and just learn how to wait. There are times that tears would tend to fall from my eyes but I just thought of this as a blessing. Certainly this is a blessing and truly I was captured by its air. As I was putting my feelings to words and creating this blog, I'm battling with the emotion of sorrow realizing that this will just be for temporary only and we will get the chance to see each other face to face soon. The saying "True Love Waits" is very evident and applicable in my case now. I've already found the love however I have to wait for that love of my life to come personally. "I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell. When it's time to walk the way, we want to walk it well. I'll be waiting for you baby, I'll be holding back the darkest nights. Love is waiting till we're ready. Till it's right. Love is waiting"....many many miles; the season of waiting...fighting~!