CHARACTER SKETCH

I have conducted an interview with a love one. We were just talking through skype when I thought of  having the interview. I asked him several questions and I observed  how he answered the question. My first question was "what makes him happy?". He didn't hesitate to answer music. He find it comforting because it separated him from having bad thoughts and experiences even he's already having a bad day. The types of music he's into are contemporary, indie and folk. He even specified some of his favorite artists such as simon and garfunkel, beatles, asian kung fu generation and some hiphop and RnB artists, and hillsong. I asked him another question but he found it vague so he didn't answer it. I said describe himself. He answered me in a straight way he said he's hardworking. can be patient and can be impatient, unorganized but he's managing things. very nostalgic.  I asked him if he will be given a chance to teach about anything, random things he said he would like to teach about how to play musical instruments. He loves playing drums. He can also play guitar, bass and a little bit of violin I think. After exploring some of his likes in life, I asked him some questions that are more personal. I asked him when does he feel great. Excitingly he answered me when people noticed a big loss of wait. He says that in that way he feels accomplished. Maybe he's really putting a lot of effort to loss wait so he's very flattered hearing this. He's a  hot tempered person and he admits it. But lately he said, he was able to control his temper and he is more persevere. I said he should avoid eating fatty foods because this might be a cause why he's hot tempered. We just laugh though. A sign that he doesn't want to stop :). We were having a great time chit chatting so I asked him what inspires him the most. I know he's a bit shy answering this in front of me, however he answered that it's his girlfriend(take note that it's me. When I asked him why, he bowed and answered me that I can't barely hear his voice. He said my girlfriend because she knows the right things to say. This made me stop for a while. Absorbed the sweet moment and after a minute go on with the interview. I asked him again about some recent activities he had. I asked him what made him smile recently. He said he saw a little girl wearing a pikachu hat and shook his hands he finds it cute. I didn't imagine that a big guy like he would find it cute. He said another soft side that I do not know yet is when he's showing empathy to other people. In this way, he can be a comforter to the needy. When asked what type of book would he like to write, he answered he wanted a horror book; something scary. And the story line??STILL PROCESSING!! He really didn't want to answer this question because he said he has no intentions to write a book, I just forced him to say so. We were on the latter part of the interview and he said he loves the ocean view. Although he was borne in Guam(a country that is also an island) he doesn't know how to swim. He said he's scared of the creatures of the water. He loves the ocean view because it's big and feels like when he's on an island it's small and there's so much more to see. He likes to explore the ocean someday but he's scared. He thought of the interview as "ridiculous". I mean it he said it on my face. Hence, it didn't stop me from asking. Made me want to ask more questions. Just to see if really is not as hot tempered as before.  I was about to end the interview when I thought of asking about us. First I asked him if he's willing wait to wait. He said YES( I felt so relief upon hearing this answer) When asked him why, I was shocked to hear a "STILL PROCESSING!!!" Deep inside I was like "oh my gums! he's playing the game now!It's pay back time because I extended the interview!". I asked him another question. But it's too private and sensitive. It was just a scenario and I know for a fact that when he answered he'd be upset, he mean it. The last question I asked was a hypothetical question. I asked him if he would be given a chance to spend a day with his girlfriend, what will he do? He couldn't find the answer to the question. He will utter the words, but then again, he would stutter. He found it difficult to verbalize it so he decided to might as well just type it. He said he would like to take his girlfriend and do things she would like to do. wants to lay down with her girlfriend and spend the whole night talking and added "i don't know". Again, he bowed his head and felt so shy answering me. In the last question, I saw the child-like-shyness of him. I felt he was uncomfortable answering the question. Kind of hesitant because perhaps, he might throw a bad answer. Overall, I felt the sincerity answering my questions, though he find it silly and ridiculous, I was so happy knowing more about this gentle giant of mine.

You're my Blog( My love letter for Pio)

The first time I saw you, I dreamed about the forever. I never imagined of that to happen, but now, I have you there and you have me here. I feel so blessed to know that you are around. To know that God is inexplicably moving to the both of us. To know how have you been the whole day, what did you eat, what made you smile, and even what made you mad; I want to know them all. You are a part of me even now that we are apart. This love that we have makes me rejoice even worst things are happening. I can't wait to see you face to face. For you to teach me how to speak and write in Japanese. The picnic that we planned to have. Even the most cheesy thought of dancing in the rain together with our hands tightly closed with and after being soaked in the rain, we'll take care of each other while sneezing. I want to watch movies with you like any other couples do. Walking around and talking till there's no more topic to talk about. I want to know you more and I want you to know me more. I want to play video games with you, eat ice cream while chatting, meet our friends. You know I just don't miss you, but I long for you. I want to cook for you, take care of you and to be with you even just for one day. It's worth it to be with someone extremely special like you. Every time I see that gorgeous smile coming out, my heart beats as if it wants to get out from my chest. I can't contain this unconditional love for you. Every time I hear your voice, that sweet and gentle voice, makes me want to reach your hand and give you a cuddle that you'll never forget. I trust you, adore you and believe in us. You know I can't have any other than you. I want to say I can't afford to look at any other boys than you. I'll wait for our time. God has started this beautiful love story of ours and I know there are more pages that are about to be filled out. At the first place, you are the source of this blog. You're the inspiration why I keep on writing these blogs and I'am able to express the things I couldn't say to you personally for now. Distance is just a matter of place but the love that I have for you knows no distance. You are my blog and I love you tremendously more and more each day.

Chilling out with Chill (by pink Floyd)

It was the 22nd of August when I had my journey to this jolly yet mysterious girl. Her name's kind of long and I don't know how to call her. Maybe I should just call her Chill then, because she looks so chill in every situation. She just kept on researching about bible verses that time. She was wearing a nice white polo and slacks along with her other classmates. I don't know why they are wearing that way, but I heard it's because of the field study. Seriously?are they studying in the fields??I thought they are Education students and not agriculture major? These people are really making my head ache -_-. As I was with her all through out the day, I just watched her. She looked so busy that's why I just let her do her stuff for the whole day. I'm afraid to bother her, she looked so nice and a little bit exhausted as well. Is there anything that I can do for you?I wanted to ask her that. But I know her answer will be "none". She was such an obnoxious girl She eats a lot. First minute she'll eat, another minute she' hungry again. And where are the fats getting deposited??I cant see any fats my dear. She didn't mind me the whole day, not until she reached their house. She ate first. After that, I gave her some time to reflect and pray. She was alone that day in her room. And suddenly, at last, She spoke. She said she misses her boyfriend. What an elementary problem I thought at first. When I saw her shinning eyes, I said, this is real. I saw sincerity. She burst out that she hasn't able to talk to her boyfriend for quite some time. He lives in Guam and she's here in the Philippines. They barely know each other but she said it doesn't matter. She said she's really massively serious this time. I put my hands up and said ok, I wont disagree with that. As time passes by, tears were not present but the agony was deeply felt. Not just by her but also by me, the frog. How can I cheer her up?I had no clue. This young lady is making me sad for some reasons. I want to nag and to brag that I should be spending a happy vacation, but all I can do is to witness the cold air. I gave her a look and made my eyes wide; as wide as I could. Then finally, a sunshine with the beautiful flowers from the background arrived as she smiles. She decided to have some pictures taken. She said she's just going to do this because it's a requirement for this subject. But deep down inside I can sense that she's excited to publish my journey with her even it's only for a day. Not to mention that she really wants to be with me in the picture; oh shoots, this handsomeness of mine.. There were smiles as the shutter flashes. Her lips as red as cherry brightened up my day. I thought she's really not into me, but hey I had dun chilling out with chill.

Give Some Nail Lovin'

Poems, stories, music;all of these are forms of art and my interest. In this way, I can express my emotions and therefore unleashes the inner creativity that I have. I'm also in to arts and crafts such as paintings, scrap booking and make up. I was inspired to create a form of art in a cute way and it is by nail art. Let me give you a quick background about the painting of one's nails. Cleopatra, a true goddess was the first person to put cu-tics on her nails. She squeezed some leaves and put the juice on her nails and voila! that was the first cutics ever made. From then on, cutics became a trend from generation to generation until to the present time. When I was in high school, I was really into cutics but because it's not allowed in our school before, I just watch nail art how-to's over the internet. Finally when I graduated from high school, I thought it was the big break for me to apply cutics and do some nail art. Since then, I became a nail art and cutics fanatic. I really don't know what it is in applying curtics, but it gives me satisfaction. For me, it determines a girl or woman's vogue. It unleashes my style and artistry, I'm not an artist though. It's showing care for the nails that for some people, not taking care of it. So come on guys show your nails some lovin!

THE TREE AND THE LEAVES

                 Once there was a very beautiful mountain and on top of it is a huge and abundant tree. It lasted for so long that mountaineers would love to rest under it. Different seasons and climates have already passed; summer, winter, fall, autumn, rain and shine. Many couples vowed to each other in front of this tree. Many families have gathered and had a reunion and this tree witnessed these all. One day, a summer and warm day, a leaf asked another leaf "Hey, aren't you tired to be in this place all these time? I think we've had enough."
"I know, but our friend, stem, still wants to stay, so what can we do?" The second leaf responded.
"Maybe we can sleep and then never wake up! In that way, we can rest forever along with the other leaves." The first leaf said.
"Okay, I think that's a good idea."
The two leaves agreed on this and announced it to the other leaves. The next day, the body which is the trunk woke up together with it's stems. People started to come and visit this famous tree. However, the trunk was shocked because he felt so weak. Another hour passed by, more and more people are starting to notice that the tree seems to look lifeless. The trunk told it stems, "We should continue to live for the people, but I'm getting weaker." The stems started complaining one by one until one of the stems noticed that the leaves are dead. He reported it to the the trunk.
"How can they do this to us? They should have at least said it to us" one of the stems said.
Weaker and weaker they became; "Some things really never last even if we belong in the same part. We can never escape to say goodbye," trunk said. After that day, this famous and abundant tree died. A man who was a regular goer to the mountain was sad and whispered "Things come and go, even this tree"

A Time For Everything

Crying, laughing, nothing,
There's a season for everything.
Longing, understanding, demanding,
These are just showing that the world is revolving.


No one could ever fathom,
How this life takes you; it is a random.
Sharing the air we breathe,
Makes it worthy to accompany with.


This season in life might take us to another place,
Perhaps, take us to the golden days.
As the scripture says:
"A time to refrain from embracing, and a time for embrace".


Above all the seasons in life,
Waiting is the one that stretches my faith,
Stretches my patience,
Tests my perseverance,


However, at the end of the road,
Because I believe that there's a time for everything
In my hands, there will be the time of getting,
And will be victorious in the time of waiting.

Long Distance Relationships by Tashira Rodriguez (July 8,1995 / Puerto Rico)

Long distance relationships. Yes, they're hard and not the most convient. You have to be able to commit to someone you may have not even met in person, or might not see very frequently. They're hard. But, in a way, it's better. You don't fall for someone based on their looks. Yes, there's that initial attraction. You saw someone's picture, thought they were cute, and decided to message them. But as you keep talking, you fall for their personalities, not their looks. And I'm not saying normal relationships are all materialistic, and are based on attraction the other's appearence. But, with long distance relationships, it's easier to overlook the other person's looks. You talk more, get to know the other person more because, well, that all you can do. That's where it gets hard. In long distance relationships, you don't get much physical affection. It's all about emotions, and that's what makes the bond stronger. There are no good-night kisses, no good-bye hugs, no cuddling sessions. But, in a way, it's all worth it. You build up to that moment where you finally meet, and it's magical. Everything you felt for that person, gets even stronger, even though you didn't think that was possible. That first kiss, well, as corny as it sounds, it's like fireworks. What you've been longing for all this time, what you've had too many dreams to count about, that momenent, finally happened. That's when you know it was all worth it. When those emotions fire up to an extreme you didn't even know possible. That's when you know, all the rough times you guys have gone through were worth it, and there's nothing to regret.

"7"

Life has different seasons,

Some of it, there are still no reasons.

Just to have somebody to be with,

Is worth it to go back being a kid.

Suddenly, it was a big shock
To have you there,
And you having me here.
The north wind blows through.

Every season in the sun,
Will be spent without him; Oh I wish I can.
Every laughter and tears,
Will just immerse.

Shouting my feelings I think is good enough,
Just knowing that we live in the same sky.
There's no need to ask what, how and why
Assuming the stars we see are the same, no need to sigh.

When the rain falls on the ground,
I will stand up and be proud
That no matter how difficult it is now,
We will get there somehow.

HAIKU

When the wind blows through
The scent from the flowers flow
Brings back the old days


Butterflies that fly
Across the deep blue blue sky
Moisture of the sun.


Autumn's breeze go forth
The green grasses are dancing
Big tree covers me.


Loving the fresh air
Lying on the green vast grass
With someone I love.


Cuddling everything
Sweet aroma of flowers
Thankful you are here.

The Beginning of a New Love

I accepted the fact of omega.
And did everything for one last time.
It felt so hard at first.
I thought I will always be in this wilderness.

I became a loner,
Always sitting at a corner.
But then, there it came a new lover,
That just came somewhere.

He approached me and spent time.
He did everything just to forget my past.
My heart and soul that was once broken,
Was renewed by the heat of his love like an oven.

I thought love will always be miserable,
But his shining smile was capable.
My body that was once disabled,
Is now fixed because he is lovable.

He gave me hope,
When I  thought everyone will say "nope".
I'll remember the warnings of love.
And will make the beginning of a new love be the last.
 

When you have to say goodbye

Days are coming, 
While yesterdays are ending.
It's so scary, 
To say what I have been feeling.

It has been a good love.
There were no awkward memories.
He was always there when I needed him, 
He makes me laugh and carried me safely.

But then; I can't stay in longer,
Maybe, I can't be with him forever.
It is because I want him to be free,
And return to the girl of his dreams.

I'm trying to pretend,
That I'm not hurt.
But each time I think and imagine,
My heart feels like it crumples.

Sometimes there are things that are better to be kept unsaid.
These are only in my mind set.
I'm so sorry dear, 
But I have to say goodbye. 
 
 

many many miles;the season of waiting..fighting~!

It was the 7th of July when I surrendered and obeyed God by committing to this blessing. It was so divine and sweet that God made a way for us to finally say our "yeses" to each other. However, it is His grace that overflowed and I could not ask for more; as they say, "it's more than enough". It was a fine and sunny Thursday and I was spending my vacant time to a computer shop. Suddenly, animosity was gone and benevolence was all over the place, it was the alpha..For some reasons, I cannot take away the burden and the agony of having a commitment with someone whose on the other side of the world. It's just a cliche for every one to feel the way I feel, hoping there will be a niche for us to meet again. It just so happened that people tend to pend me with the previous one. It took me a lot of guts to finally give in to this so called "love". I was afraid for a time because of so many agony that I may encounter with this relationship. He is far, we are distant, we wont have time with each other; these are the doubts in my head. No one could ever assist me on this hence if loving will be like this, I'll take against all odds. I'll take these extremes. There are times that I long for his presence physically but at the back of my mind, we made this decision and this is his package therefore I should not take this against anyone else and just learn how to wait. There are times that tears would tend to fall from my eyes but I just thought of this as a blessing. Certainly this is a blessing and truly I was captured by its air. As I was putting my feelings to words and creating this blog, I'm battling with the emotion of sorrow realizing that this will just be for temporary only and we will get the chance to see each other face to face soon. The saying "True Love Waits" is very evident and applicable in my case now. I've already found the love however I have to wait for that love of my life to come personally. "I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell. When it's time to walk the way, we want to walk it well. I'll be waiting for you baby, I'll be holding back the darkest nights. Love is waiting till we're ready. Till it's right. Love is waiting"....many many miles; the season of waiting...fighting~!

when erogenous strikes

It was a gloomy morning..The usual day but something is unusual it thickens my chromatic emotions. Every word that comes out from other people's mouth are like a sharp double edged sword. It feel so senseless and hopeless and restless. There is a hunger for affection, but at the same time dilemma is striking me. Paroxysm takes place and this cliche is totally superb. I can't express the lazy feeling of thy epitome heart and mind but one thing is for sure. That I do not suppose to feel this feeling like a moron feels...I want to scream this to the top of my lungs so that people will understand why is it being manifested in my being. But no one is going to listen, no one's going to care no one is going to blare. There are silent noises on my background and though these are not for me, I take it against me. Erogenous is striking, it is alarming.
When I decided to have my devotion, I had clarifications and response. It was a commence and sweet rebuke to me. He taught never to be afraid if I want to complain to Him. If I want to demand! If I want to explode. Just do not hold a grudge to anyone. Apostle Paul once showed how he felt during his days when he wrote the letter for the Corinthian(1 Corinthian 9). There I understand that I should never be ashamed on expressing how I feel and don't devote to pretend  that I'm courageous like super heroes are. For as we run the race of this life, one should be trained(1 Cor 9:25) in order for him to know his strengths and weaknesses so that his weaknesses will be improved and be transformed into strengths. Even apostle Paul became weak for those who are weak therefore he a man of God understands the way I feel. This came to me that I'm truly not alone not just in the present generation but also to the early times. For when I feel undone and miserable, He reminded me of His agony as well when He was still alive as seen in John 11:35..Jesus wept. He understands when I also undergo to this stage. What could be the best remedy when erogenous strikes??is to gaze at His peace the time He wept..

ONE LAST TIME

Now it's all over.
I can't hide the tears, it covers.
We started as lovers,
We thought, we will always be believers.

Now I'm with you, you are with me
Let's take this opportunity.
To say to each other the words "I'am sorry",
And we can never be.

At least we made each other glad,
But our fate it bad.
Now we have to say "goodbye"
Though we want to cry.

I never regret we gave it a try
But this moment, I'am asking why?
Can't we make it longer?
To prove that we are much stronger?

I will miss everything.
Your hands, your touch, your hug.
I can see those eyes that are shinning,
Try to stop crying my darling.

Can I hug you tight?
I'm going to miss it,no; I'll take it light.
Can I touch your face?
That I will never see in every place.

Then we have to leave.
To go on and live.
But I want to kiss you first,
And one last time, please fill my thirst.

Bitter Yesterday

From the moment he turned those devilish eyes on me
I knew, this love he brought,
The quiver it shows
I was attracted the most

But now, those dreams are frivolous.
From the sweet moments, now a heart monument
Now, only reminiscing those sleepless nights
From the pain you brought.

Those unseprable days,
Now are like trees without leaves
From my shining eyes,
Now, the lights are off, it hurts the most

It deepens the heartache
When I discover, you already have someone new
Sometimes I want to quit the fight.
But I just have to push through to win, I might.

It is a catastrophe, yes it is.
But we have to live just to learn.
Though everytime I see, in myn heart it's like a slap
So I've decided to ignore these feelings.

How I wish I can turn back the invincible time,
But I have nothing else to prove.
I gave my love but you broke it up.
I just hope I can press on from the bitter yesterday.

Dear Papa

HI. I can't think of words to start this letter for you although I know, you wont be able to read this. I don't want this letter to be a dramatic one, but maybe I can be transparent and open the things that I really wanted to tell you personally. First, I want to say thank you for giving me the chance to live and be in this superb(if I may say) world. At times, I find it difficult, but you taught me how to be strong in a way. You didn't really got the chance to watch me grow and you were not able to guide me as well. I have a lot of bitterness to say, but I guess it's nonsense to say those.  As I was growing up, I didn't feel much the "father figure" that I thought I would have and every child would want to have. You left us though we know you are just there. That's the most heart breaking part of it. At first, I lack the comprehension as to why you were like an invisible father to us. In the beginning I thought you didn't like us because you just let us go through tough times without even lending us a helping hand. As a child, it made me feel undone to see my mother suffering and the only one worrying for our family. I have seen how you treated mother, and I committed to myself that I will never marry a man like you. You might hate me saying these things but umm, that's the fruit of your actions and I'm just responding to it. You made me think that living is chaotic and life will always be miserable. It seems like everyone will always say  "nope" to me. As I grow older, these things didn't hinder me to become a better person. I realized that the experiences that I got from you were helpful. It made me grow as an individual. I noticed that, the main lesson I've learned from you is to be independent. You taught me how to not be dependent and relay on other people in a positive note.. You taught me that I should not expect something from people, for if they failed to meet that, I will be frustrated and will become bitter. It made me better that's the good news. You also taught me how to think first before doing something. Just like what you did to our family, you didn't think of our future, so I said to myself I wont ever imitate that kind of mentality. The last lesson that I could ever think of today is you taught me how to love. As a father, you didn't show it as well. Loving others especially my family is one thing that gives me the edge why I already forgave you. Because you didn't show love to us, though I know, you have that  hence you were not able to express it properly. I want to be your representative. I want to cover the things and fill the things you didn't do for us so that at the end of the day, it will be your credits. It will give the connotation of you filling us with your benevolence and nurtured us. I still think of you.
I'm sorry for the things I have done wrong. I'm sorry for not being the daughter that you would want me to be. It's just me, because of you.

Life is a pair of shoes

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Of all the blessings I received from the Almighty, life is the most challenging. It has a lot of meanings and it gives a lot of meanings. Sometimes it is in harmony, at times it is in rankle. Sometimes it brings blessings, at times it gives curse. Life is an adventure, and the lead actors and actresses in this story is none other but us. It is a never ending journey and we must walk and abide on it.
In life, we walk and run literally. Enable for a person to have a good moment doing these activities, one should have a nice pair of shoes. It will lead us to a more joyful ride and it'll help to unleash the excitement while walking and running. I want to emphasize about the "walking" and the "running" thing.
Walking. It is needed in our life. It will take us wherever we want to go. Our shoes as our means of transportation. We need to walk as days passes by. We have nothing to do but yo go with the flow. There will be times that we need to walk with our family and friends; our love ones, however most of the time we walk alone. It is melancholic to walk alone, but we soon realize that we reflect taking a leap of faith and mature. We walk in happy and in agony.
But there will be times that walking will not be enough to go to a place and as we run, it speeds up and boosts our adrenaline. There will be giants in life that we cannot escape. Just run and deal with it. You will perspire and get tired, hence at the end of the day, all efforts will be credited. Run with conviction.
slowing down or moving forward is a matter of of choice. It's either we dwell on the past or forget what lies behind.
Our stuff to use in walking and running in this life is our shoes. It will take us to wherever we want to go. It will protect us from any thorns or creatures that we might step in. We put our feet in it and confidently put our trust. For me life is a pair of shoes, we must have someone to share our life even to the most difficult or easy time. Someone who will make us feel comfortable and just like a pair of shoes, someone who will fit in our lives without forcing it.

THE OMEGA

THROUGH THE WIND'S WILL
WE BID GOODBYE
THROUGH THE PALM OF FATE
WE GOT CAUGHT IN THE THORNS OF DILEMMA

HOW BITTER I FEEL NOW
HOW SOUR THOSE MEMORIES TO RECALL
WHENEVER LOVE LOOKS BACK,
I HAVE THIS FEELING OF BEING BLUE

HOW CAN DESTINY PLAYED WITH THY FEELINGS?
HOW CAN DESTINY LET IT END?
DESTINY INTRODUCED ME TO HIM
AND YET, DESTINY SEPARATED ME FROM HIM

I CANNOT SAY THAT I'M A LUNATIC IN THIS SHOW
BECAUSE I GAVE MY LOVE
HIS TREE, I FILLED WITH FRUITS,
HIS CUP, I FILLED WITH WINE

I CANNOT ESCAPE FROM THIS SADNESS,
MY FACE THAT WAS SHEAD WITH TEARS.
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE THAT FATE TOOK
THE OMEGA OF OUR TIME

I'am "Rinnah"

I was born the same day as the birthday of one of our heroes, Andres Bonifacio.
I'am such a darling, my mother would always tell me, I'am independent and simple. 
I sing, act and write poems and stories.
Someday I will travel with my family. 
I'am a pure shout of praise.

season of singleness=single of famine and drought?

                  Single. If you're going to look at the dictionary, it states "is someone who is not in a relationship or is unmarried". Technically, if you're not yet married you are still single whether someone is already in a relationship. In the past years; way back ten years perhaps, singleness is being valued by most of the people especially us, Filipinos. Singleness is the time to enjoy and it is the time to focus on the things that they want to do. But nowadays, for the most of the people, especially the girls(let's face it) singleness is a curse. But is it really a curse??or is it a blessing??I want to share my "season of singleness" with you. 
                  I want to talk about singleness because God has been dealing with me about this season for this past few weeks. I'm in this season and enjoying it, but sometimes, or there are times that I feel anxious about the couples around me. There was a time when I went to a mall let me quote it "STa. Lucia", I was walking all alone waiting for my friends. While I was walking "alone" I noticed that majority of the people are couples. At the back of my mind I said "hey!you are out of place here"..*sighs and then walk again. I used to wonder why I'm still single and honestly(though it's a shame on my part), I even question myself if I'm beautiful. Is my face tragic? Do I look normal? But as time passed by, it came up to me and God spoke in my heart that the reason why I'm still in this season is because of the three things that I've heard from a youth gathering.
                  The first reason is, I must understand the value of security. Before, I thought that if someone is in a relationship that person is secured already. That no one can harm him/her and that this is the "forever" that they are pertaining. But as I see people coming from a relationship and hops to another relationship "again", I must say that these people doesn't understand the value of security in the first place. The value of security does not come from the partner but it comes from God. God's assurance and security must be considered first before getting to a relationship. The second thing is holiness. Holiness means setting apart. A lot of people now are very desperate to  put 'in-a-relationship' in their facebook's status. And because of the word "instant" it's very easy to have a partner without even knowing the holiness that is also a part of a relationship. People in this generation easily give themselves to their partner. And God reminded me that this is not being holy and pure and I must understand and apply this two in myself first before having a relationship. The third one is having passion for God. Even I before, didn't understand this point but now I do. This point is the answer to my question why I'm still single. The reason why I'm in this season is because God wants me to be more passionate to Him. To get more intimate and deeper.  Of course I cannot do that if I'am in a relationship. Whenever I read His word, I know I'm getting closer and intimate with Him. And that's the reason why I should be thankful to Him for giving me the chance to be in this season because I'm getting to know Him more. I know He has someone for me, still I want to be single now because I want to be more passionate for Him. I must and sincerely say that singleness is not a curse, it is truly a blessing.
                              To all the singles out there, I hope I was able to give you an encouragement for you not to be depressed and question yourself if you're a beautiful person. You are! However, consider this 3 points first and see if the season of singleness is still equals to single of famine and drought? Nah...I don't think so.